You’re home sick and it’s super normal. Everyone back home is moving on with their life and you get a lot of fomo.
I struggle sometimes and that’s after 5 years of being abroad. Every time I go back to my home town I get super anxious so I know I shouldn’t move back but my brain romanticises it.
Imo give it 2 years unless you are hysterically crying all the time. The feeling will lessen as you develop a sense of community in Switzerland.
One thing I will say though is that once you have developed a sense of community in another city you forever carry a burden of ‘what life might have been’ no matter what you do. It’s kind of shitty feeling and you will never be able to reconcile it because you can’t bring all the people you love to the same place. It’s 100% worth it but it’s not all positives.
It took my family a while to come to terms that I’m probably not moving back. My mum would often try to guilt trip me but I told her it’s what I want and she needs to support me and viola she did! I got lucky though…
Honestly just be honest with her next time she tries to guilt you. Just say you had such a terrible time when you came back and didn’t feel loved at all then why would I ever come back again? My guess is she’s mad at you for leaving but doesn’t have the maturity to understand that that is her problem and not yours and is just taking it out on you.
If you have the opportunity try and pull an honest conversation together but yea there’s only so much you can do.