You’re dealing with a lot of guilt-tripping here. Your family’s insistence on your return, despite being unprepared or unwilling to provide adequate support or appreciation, suggests a form of emotional manipulation. This disconnect between their words and actions is downright confusing and draining. Also, your family’s dismissive attitude toward your efforts and sacrifices is baffling, indicating a lack of empathy and emotional support.
By all means, establish and maintain healthy boundaries with your family to protect your emotional and financial well-being. You don’t have to break communication with them completely. Just consider what is most important to you in terms of family obligations, personal happiness, and well-being.
WTF? Are you studying in North Korea?