I’ve lived in paris for 5/6 years, I was fluent when I arrived (years of international school) and my mom had already been living here for several years. Still, it was a big culture shock and adjustment and absolutely levelled up my French to the point where now French people usually assume I am from here.
The problem is even with all that, I just don’t feel at home. Some cultural differences feel insurmountable, the blasé and critical attitude is difficult for me, I’ve always been very high energy and jokey and have a hard time finding people in everyday life who match that energy. Whenever I go back to the states I feel so fulfilled and like myself and it really makes me question why I’m here. I have a very cool job in the non-profit sector, so not super well-paid, and a very stable loving relationship, my apartment, my mom… there’s still something where I feel like I’ll never fully be accepted here. I feel like my American-ness immediately puts me down in peoples’ eyes, I feel like I will never write perfectly or totally grasp codes and it will always take me a slight extra effort to understand things that are easy for people here. I don’t get cultural references and I don’t know the clichés of every tiny town and region.
I’m from New York so I liked living here because I felt that Paris was such a better cost of living/quality of life ratio, and I love the work-life balance and accessibility of culture. However, what use are my 5 weeks of vacation if I spend half of them going back home? And probably, I always will, because my missing home will never go away, my friends and family there will keep getting married or getting sick or just being there ?
And France’s descent into xenophobic fascism is not helping. I know all the issues in the US, but it’s different, I am from there and always will be, whereas I am actively choosing to live in France and contribute to its economy.
Just feeling like the jig is up and I did what I had to do, and now I can leave. This is just venting, don’t know if anyone here can relate, if this is a bump in the road or a red alert.
I’m from Czech and have been living in Canada for about 8-9 years. I’ve actually moved back to Prague twice and then to Canada, just different city… the struggle is real.
BUT I finally figured it out - I have lot of Czech books, map of Prague in my kitchen, lot of small kitchen jars with Czech words and set up Skypes with my Czech friends, bake my own “real” bread, etc. Overall I do prefer my life in Canada without a doubt and I feel lucky to be here, but it’s also nice to remember my roots and be surrounded by the things from Czech that brings me joy.
Yah that’s a hard one because there is so little actual culture In Canada, but the quality of life is probably much better supported from a federal perspective.
We have culture! I don’t get the whole “Canada has no culture” thing. I really don’t. Live somewhere else and you will realize how much you miss “Canadian” things.
I think it’s just a euphemism for not having a long history, which is a bit unfair imo.