Just visited my home country (EU) and I am now returning to my expat country (US) and a wave of depression hit me.
I never considered myself to be very attached to my family or my country but after three years and now finally coming back to visit, last night I was extremely depressed. I created an overall good life for myself in the US and I don’t think I would ever see myself coming back to the EU to live permanently, but now I am at the airport leaving and I can’t help but feel an overwhelming sadness.
I’m wondering what experiences other people had in regards to this. Does it get easier? And is leaving after visiting always this sad?
Always the same, if i visit my grandma in Russia (which will be in 2024/ Mai) i feel so much freedom walking outside, doing stuff, nearly untouchable yes but coming home feels pretty good too. Everytime i visit my grandma i withdrawl there from drugs for 3 Weeks, using no mobile phone and internet, so im looking forward to fly back to my expat country. Dont judge me, everybody struggles with something i withdrawl from weed which i need to sleep or to fall asleep, that is the only struggle i experience not sleeping at nights still im visiting her frequently