I’ve been in a very similar situation, wanting to immigrate before ending it all… I did end up doing it, moved to a country with a language I didn’t speak. It wasn’t easy and definitely not a solution.

What languages do you speak, other than your native and English? What’s your field of work? I would advise choosing a country based on those two things.

I know it’s tough, and sometimes it seems like it doesn’t get any easier… Dm me if you need help