I’m from South Asia, partner is Estonian. I asked him to seek liquification to use it as fertilizer on our garden. Or just bury me without coffin if allowed here (i do not want a coffin, I want a full soil burial)

I don’t have issues with access to a therapist. In fact, my company pays 100 euros every 3 months for checkup and I use if for therapy sessions.

Most of my problems stem of language barrier. I can converse and understand but with doctors, you dont get to “practice”. The issue is, most specialists, who can and are allowed to diagnose and prescribe life changing medicines do not speak english and they refuse to take anyone who is not local (even if I have a translator or become native, they just do not want to deal with us). Those who can, refuse to prescribe after diagnosis because…no clue.

My partner has gotten many meds relating to his anxiety and adhd and he does not use them because, to him, they overprescribe. Whereas I am getting worse and very close to ending everything and they can see it, they say so, but they will not prescribe. They are playing “safe” with me and are not willing to even give me smaller doses to try.

About having local friends : this is my biggest fear.

Most struggle with finding local friends, but if you can’t make one, will expats not fill the same need? No worries, there are locals are friends of expats and immigrants, who you will interact with anyway once you start interacting with other expats. Tallinn might be harder because everyone is working and they have their own close friends developed after years of living here. But cities like Tartu and Parnu will be different because of younger crowd who are students. That’s how I made friends there who eventually moved to tallinn as i did.

Estonia - good and easy bureaucracy. Good public transport. Salary is good enough for us despite the rising costs in Tallinn. But if you have a remote job, you can live in any cheaper area or out of town to save living cost, but in winter it may get very difficult since the snow will hamper your commute. Flights from here are mostly expensive, so best bet would be to get them from Riga. There’s a good expat community here, active and very into integration. Most youngens speak english.

Negative - You will still need to learn the language at least until B1. Costs are rising here and it is getting harder to Save after mandatory costs. Rents are rising because of newcomers and landlords being assholes. Oh yeah, landlords Will try to take advantage of you - have an estonian friend to help with translation.

Fellow Bangladeshi here in Estonia. Came here as a student with scholarship for masters at Tartu university. Low population but you will eventually need to learn the language upto B1 for long term permit. Then you can switch to another european country if you want warmer climate.

Your skills are not saturated, so there’s reasonable amount of opportunities here, especially if you can get web development and similar IT skills. The capital is expensive though but as a single person, the salary for IT will be more than enough to save as well. But if you want to stick to flexible work, you can live on your photography and video gigs.

Racism - there will def be some slurs thrown at you but you have little reason to fear for your life (i speak as a woman). Admittingly, brown women do have better experience than brown men.

Let me know if you have questions.

Apply for the Express Entry for Canada. While you wait for your results, see if you can spend time in warmer European countries while you graduate (e.g. Malta) where language will not be an issue and locally seek opportunities to move. This way you have multiple avenues, even if you do not move to Canada. Just have the option for safe bet.

P.S - fellow South Asian woman in Estonia. Planning to move away once I have enough money to make the move.